Sunday, 23 July 2017

Life, the Universe and Everything

Okay maybe not but I haven't blogged in over a month because life has gotten in the way. To be fair though I have also not really been comping, doing reviews or much else either!

There isn't a specific reason why - I wish I could say I have been sick, depressed, lost a leg, lost my job, got a new job or anything else remotely interesting but I can't!

So what have I been up to?

Roller Derby - I go every Thursday after work and most Sundays as well. As the season is over for the main league they aren't really training as much on a Sunday which means a few times they have had free skate sessions after the learner sessions where  I have been able to stay behind and practice more - and I REALLY need the extra practice! It's been just over 3 months since I dipped my toe stops into roller derby and there has been a lot  of improvement (along with a lot of bruises, aching muscles and joints and temper tantrums!)

Gym Sessions - I try to do 3-4 classes a week -I'm not fit but I am fitter than when I started. I originally started with 1 class a week and I am now coping with 3-4  classes. The classes I do are legs bums and tums (Mon and Wed), stretch (Wed)  and kettle bells (Fri). They are only 30/45 min classes but they are high intensity and I have tried to up my game at them - from the first class of LBT where I used a flat step and no weight to where I am now using the high step and 5 kg weight (eventually I might progress to the bar weights but not yet!), in stretch I am able to get lower and hold the positions better and well, I have only just started kettle bells so no improvement yet but there will be eventually! After my long holidays in Sept/ Oct I am going to get a PT and hopefully get more work done on my core, arms and upper body.

Trips :) - I was down London for a weekend with my bestie at the start of the month and it was wonderful to just kick back and catch up :) We stayed in a hostel in Hammersmith, had glorious weather, got drunk, went shopping and giggled the whole weekend. I also went for a spa weekend with my mum for her birthday - I was lucky enough to win that which was fantastic as to be honest there is no way we could  have afforded it - we stayed in a ridiculously expensive suite at the Cary Arms in Babbacombe with breakfast included,as well as a 3 course meal spa treatment each. We had a lovely relaxing long weekend and the weather was glorious.

Tattoo - I got a new tattoo it's one I wanted for a while of the luggage from Discworld and I love it

Work stuff - I applied for another job, had an interview, didn't get it. Applied for study funding with work to see if I can finish off my degree with the OU - waiting for the outcome but not confident they will fund it even though I was told originally they most likely would. Currently putting together another job application which closes 30th July.

Other stuff - Finally paid off the holiday - woohoo but it has left me ridiculously skint boo

And that's it - so now everyone is caught up and I will try and update the blog more regularly now!



Thursday, 15 June 2017

Positive Post :)

So my last blog post was a bit whingy -  okay a LOT whingy - Can I blame it on hormones? It was that time of the month and I was grumpy but I am over it now :)

Today I am feeling so much better about life in general. The last week I have been back at the gym I have done 3 sessions and I'm not lying I have forgotten what it feels like to move without pain! But it's  good pain in that it's an I'm aching because I have worked my damn ass off sort of pain! My ankle is a lot better - I still dont have full rotation, flexion or movement and stairs especially are still a struggle both going up and down reciprocally but it's getting there. I've  invested in a really good ankle support for the bad ankle and also a sports support for my good ankle.

I'm also feeling super positive about roller derby training too :) I still suck but there is improvement! I've finally done a few of the minimum skills, I'm not brilliant at stopping but I am better and I have finally started doing some contact too! I am chatting more to the others at the skate sessions and dont feel quite  so excluded. Today I totally worked through the whole personal space thing, I got way closer to sweaty people than I would ever have done before - there was sweaty skin on skin contact and I didnt freak out! Okay I did freak out but internally and coped with it all - even when the coach asked me if I wanted to sit out one of the activities I said no I'll try.

I've also put in for funding in work to complete my degree - my manager has been amazing and basically said she supports my application and she will support me to do this - she's  done OU herself and has even done 2 of the modules I want to do and has said she's willing to help me in anyway she can. I completed the funding form by myself and then passed it to my manager and the training manager to review - took on board their advice and made a couple of minor changes and its ready to go eep - if the funding gets agreed I'll know next month and then I'll be starting the degree in October. If it doesnt get agreed then I am going to ask for funding to do a welsh language course :)

I'm also putting in an application for  band 5 job, now I don't believe I will get this job but it shows that I am keen to progress - and hopefully I will get feedback to let me know how to improve for when another one comes up :)

Anyways thats what has been going on in my world :) Peace


Tuesday, 6 June 2017

Whinging post :/

Right now I am really struggling to fit in, be normal and sociable! This post is just a brain dump of me whinging - sorry!

I started roller derby and have been talking to new people- I wouldnt say making friends but making an effort to be less anti-social and weird. It's hard work and I am finding it really difficult to do but I am doing it - go me!

I also put myself forward to help out at 2 home games for the team - I did one on Sunday and it was awful like I wanted to go hide out in the bathroom until it was over. I didn't know what I was doing, I fucked up and I was in front of everyone- I had thought I might do something that would have me off to one side with other people not in the middle of the track by myself where any fuck ups could be seen by everyone :(

After that, I figured they wouldn't want me to help out at the next game or that maybe they would give me something else to do but nope next game same thing again - I think it must be a really unpopular job so they gave it to me as no-one else wants to do it. It's not for a couple of weeks but I feel  sick at doing it again but don't want to back out when I have said I would do it already.

My ankle is still sore it is taking ages to heal - okay its been just over a week but it feels like ages - like I was getting into a routine that I could manage - 3 x gym classes plus 2 x skating classes plus walking and cycling - I was actually enjoying it and could see some improvement in my fitness levels(although sadly not in my flabby body yet!) and starting to get  some more confidence and now phhht I feel like I am still useless again - like there is no point in trying.

I feel awkward at the gym but at least you work as an individual - in the skating sessions there is often work with another person and I don't feel comfortable to ask someone to work with me - they are all a lot better so working with me means they aren't going to get much from the session. Also it's a lot of personal space invasion which I am not good at I get freaked out about it. I'm trying but its hard everything is fucking hard.

I hate that I am so rubbish at everything, that simple interactions with people are so difficult. I can see why I am like I am, I just don't know how to get past it.

Sunday, 28 May 2017

General clumsiness and roller derby

Thursday is going to be my 2  month anniversary since I started learning to skate.

I've worked out that due  to various injuries etc I have actually attended 9 sessions:

Session 1 -  got myself kitted up made it to the track and started skating - no problems which I think was the problem it gave them the wrong impression it made them think that I had some skills! Got cocky and face/boob planted! Cracked  my ribs which was confirmed by my GP a few days later!

Session 2 - footwork involved walking up and down and side to side on skates - no issues

Session 3 - fell over within minutes of arriving - damaged quad muscle in leg had to leave as couldn't walk after - sat in the car for abut 20 mins before attempting to drive home - badly.

Session 4 - after a 2 week break - managed to not fall and injure myself - go me but terrified of falling and therefore skating super slow

Session 5-6 - few gentle falls but nothing major

Session 7 - went a bit faster and then fell and landed on my ass - bruised my coccyx which for your information really fucking hurts - spent the rest of the week tying to find a comfy position to sit my ass in!

Session 8 - ass still sore - freaked out when being made to skate up close and personal through a pace line and being told to lean on someone - it was hot and sweaty and gross - opted out and sulked

Session 9 - feeling brave did all activities then fell over in slow motion - to save my ass I twisted and landed on my ankle - which I currently have strapped up, raised on a pillow with a side of ice in the desperate hope the swelling goes down and I can walk on it tomorrow! - continued skating as I thought it was a twist and everyone knows a twisted ankle only gets worse if you rest it right?

I've come to the conclusion that I am reliably uncoordinated and lacking in skills which sucks ass.

I really want to progress but this fear that I am going to seriously injure myself or someone else has really got a grip on me. As I have managed pretty much an injury every other session the outlook isnt good!


Saturday, 13 May 2017

#Project52 Weeks 15 - 20

Wow a month worth's of photos aren't you all lucky!

Week 15:

Roller Derby! Yes I can skate (but only forwards, in one direction, at a slow speed, with my arms held out and wobbling like a weeble)


Week 16:

Dena Cat! I rarely get nice pics of Dena - she is very much an outdoor, not fond of humans type of cat - her mother was feral and I think she still has some of that wildness in her. Here is a rare picture I got where she doesn't look like she wishes to remove my gall bladder with her claws!



Week 17:

I am so lucky to have some amazing friends. My fabulous comping friend sent me a care bundle just because :) and she even included these amazing Disney PJ bottoms for me - which I am totally wearing out in public as leggings because they are too nice just for bed!



Week 18:

New skates - I got new skates for roller derby because mine as more for outside and fun skating rather than derby - I got these lovely new black ones - still not brilliant but better and I appear to be going a lot faster on them!



Week 19:

Voting is  important - seriously people thought for our right to vote so how can people apathetically ignore whats going on in the world and not? 1 vote can make a difference! Here is Dena Cat walking with me to the polling station - she also wanted to vote but the silly kitty didnt register!



Week 20:

Cardiff is going to be hosting the UEFA cup at the end of the month - I'm not a fan of football but I am loving the dragon who has taken up residence on Cardiff Castle :)



#PostPost Weeks 15 - 20

Yowsers - okay I admit to failing to update the postpost posts for a fair few weeks my poor excuse is that I have been hitting the gym plus doing roller skating and they have pretty much taken up all my time and energy. I don't have photos of everything either so some items are just going to be listed. I will do better in the future (well I'll try to but life gets in the way sometimes!)


Freebie: Co-opgave these away on FB and Twitter -  you had t nominate a good egg


Product Trial: Vagisil wipes with the Insiders EU

Win: Chewy Moon Sub Boxes (I won 4 weeks worth of these)

Win: Book

Win: Family ticket for the Botanical Gardens of Wales

Win: Chewy Moon sub box

Freebies: Print at home coupons for free milk and free John West Tuna

Win: From Mojo mums 3 x limited edition Baylis and Harding hand soaps

Freebie: Skin care

Win: Letter box lab - subscription box


Win: Book


Win: Milk it tee and water bottle/shaker

Win: ChewyMoon sub box

Freebie: dream bone sample plus vouchers

Freebie: skin balm and shower gel

Freebie: skin care

Win: Game of Thrones ceramic Mug

Review: Tactical Rucksack

Product trial: Free coupons for dole frozen berries plus shopping bag, trolley coin and recipes to take part in the smoothie morning trial

Freebie: skin care samples

Review: No tie shoe laces

Freebies: gluten free cornflakes and voucher

Win: Book

Review: UV/Cooling sleeves for sports (I want them for under my pads when skating)

Review: Unicorn slippers


Review: screen protector for S7


Review: 5 pairs f cool dog socks (only 4 shown as I gave one pair away in work)

Product trial: Purina Beyond dog food plus a shopping bag

Review: resistance bands for training

Review: phone holder for the gym

Win: DVD Muscle Body Builder in Hell

Win 3 x latest Dr Who novels

Review: fashion jewellery - minnie mouse necklace

No pics because I forgot!

Review: Doggy car seatbelts

Review: Edison lightbulbs

Tuesday, 9 May 2017

Vagisil Intimate Wipes - Got an itchy fan?

Insiders.eu have recently run a new campaign trying out various vagisil products. I got in on the project and put my name forward for the Vagisil Itch Relief Intimate Wipes - personally I think they should have gone with itchy fan wipes shorter and more to the point but as I'm not on the marketing team for them they have gone for their choice :P

If your interested in signing up for the Insiders have a look at the information here - I'd definitely recommend it they run a variety of different campaigns with some great companies and products. They provide everything you need to take part as well as plenty of product samples to share.

Back to this campaign:


I got my Insiders kit a few weeks ago. It contained:

- Full size pack of wipes for me (woohoo)
- 10 cute little pillow packs of goodies to share with family, friends, neighbours etc

These contain 4 individually wrapped wipes and the cushion pack folds out to give an information sheet






















- an Insider/Vagisil information pack giving you all the background info about the product
- some ask your friend sheets to get feedback
- some Insiders business cards to hand out to anyone interested in joining :)

So the purpose of these wipes are to help you freshen up, clean and relieve itchiness around the vaginal area.

Apparently women still find it difficult to talk about their vag and intimate health probs - Growing up as the youngest of 3 girls with a mam and dad who were both nurses talking about issues down below has never been something I've been shy about. I understand your fanny might be a scary thing (ever looked at it in a mirror? haha) but lets get real why should we suffer and feel uncomfortable just because we are to afraid to speak out about it? I mean I'm not saying tattoo your forehead with I sometimes get a pH imbalance which causes me to itch or antibiotics give me thrush (my nan used to refer to it as her little birdy visiting) but surely it's not a big deal to say to your female friends damn I'm feeling a bit itchy today anyone got any good suggestions? Like 1/5 women are concerned about their intimate health but over 50% are too afraid to speak about it so basically if your on a bus there are probably 5-10 women riding that bus who has concerns or problems too but arent speaking about it!

Craziness!!!

So part of this project is to get women talking about intimate health and of course trying out the vagisil wipes.

I'm actually a big fan of the wipes - I like that they are individually wrapped so you can slip them into your handbag - small and discreet and handy! They are just a little bit bigger than a credit card so they could even be slipped into your purse out of the way. They are easy to use and wrap back  in the packaging and bin.






















**I really shouldn't have to say this but they are single use only - don't use them and and save them for later or share the same wipe with someone else**

 After getting my pack I was really excited to sign people up to the campaign and to give out my samples.

I signed up work colleagues, neighbours and family straight away - it was interesting that the "older" people as in aged 40+ were much more open to taking part than younger ones I guess when you have had 20+years of smears, had kids etc it's not so much of a big deal to talk about your fan!

I actually gave out all of my sample packs within a few days of receiving them.

Feedback so far has pretty much been all positive - everyone is loving them (their only complaint is they wanted more free samples in the packs the greedy buggers).

I am using mine after gym sessions - I find wearing leggings to the gym comfy but you definitely get a bit sweaty with everything being quit tight and all the movement. The wipes not only relieve itching but also leave you feeling fresher too.  I can imagine they would be great on long journeys as well where you are stuck on a plain, coach or train for hours and your clothes and pants are getting a little uncomfortable!